This week was definitely one with ups and downs. I had to have scans and tests done that were unpleasant at best and awful at the worst. I still have a bruise on my arm from the IV they gave me for a CT scan. My brother got the results back from a test he’d done the week before and they came back positive for thyroid cancer. He also proposed to his girlfriend (he’d been planning that for a while, apparently).
One of the things I learned this week is that I have a much stronger connection between food and my emotions than I thought. Most specifically, bad news and emotional stress have me reaching for the chocolate. More than once I found myself looking in the freezer for a pint of Ben and Jerry’s Phish Food that I knew wasn’t there. I didn’t let myself go buy any, either, but that took a toll on my will power later in the week. By Saturday, my will power was shot and I fell off the wagon. I ate fatty, greasy foods and almost half of a sugar free pie and I hated myself for it.
So, I’m learning. This week I have resolved to learn a couple new things, the first being that I don’t have to be strong all the time. Apparently, I went through passing a kidney stone without pain killers. There were days when I wanted to scream and cry because I hurt so bad but I sucked it up and soldiered on because, well, that’s what women do. The second thing I’m going to learn this week is to do something when the stress hits. No, I’m not going to grab the Ben and Jerry’s, but I might go for a walk, or roll out the yoga mat and just zen out.
I did try a couple of new, delicious and healthy recipes this week and I’ve been asked to share them. So, I will be making them again this week and posting them, complete with pictures.
Here are this weeks numbers:
Starting weight: 316.8 lbs
Week 2 weight: 309.8 lbs
Total weight lost: 6.6 lbs
current pant size 26
Yep, still not sharing measurements but will once they’re lower.